Wake up, cry, get a diaper change, try to pee on whoever's changing the diaper, eat, poop while eating, get another diaper change, try to pee on the changer again, lay on a blanket and coo and be cute, yawn, get swaddled, get rocked to sleep, sleep.
Repeat every 3-4 hours
I would say that we like to sleep late (we get up around 9am)...but what is late when your day never really begins or ends? I tend to get philosophical on little sleep...
Speaking of sleep, look how cute he is sleeping in his swing!
Jack's Day
Outings
Is it sad that I take my time choosing which onesie Jack will wear to the doctors office? It's one of the very few places the little one has frequented in his 16 days of life! And if I take my time picking out his onesie for the doctor (who couldn't care less what he's wearing...in fact, as soon as I walk in, the nurse tells me to strip him down to his diaper), just imagine what it's like choosing one for him to wear to church where people might actually see his cute outfit!
Do boys have "outfits"? Especially if it's just a onesie?
Top 10 Things I've Learned in the Past 12 Days
1. A tiny peepee has great aim...especially if there's a clean shirt in the room.
2. A 30 minute feeding takes an hour.
3. One, two, three, or four swaddle blankets are not enough...if there is a clean swaddle blanket in the vicinity, there will be pee on it very very soon.
4. A newborn should always wear a diaper!
5. A tiny peepee can shoot pee across the room, hit a wall, and leave a puddle around the baseboard.
6. Even when Jack is crying, he is sooooooooooo cute!
7. Seven hours of sleep broken up into 2 or 3 hour blocks is just not the same as 7 hours of consecutive sleep!
8. My husband is wonderful!
9. Gas drops are gold...and MUST be administered after every feeding!
10. Dogs who you think will resent the baby might actually end up being his great protector.
He's Here!
It was Saturday night and I'd been cooking a brisket in the oven for hours. It smelled wonderful and reminded me of family dinners at home. I've cooked one brisket before and it was a disaster. That was 3 years ago...attempting to do it again made me nervous, but things were looking and smelling really good! It's amazing anything can smell good at this point...
Jack's first picture in the hospital
T plus 4...and waiting...
Jack must really like it in there...he's quite comfortable and content! Not that that's a bad sign, maybe he's just a laid back kind of baby, who's just fine wherever he is! He doesn't mind just hanging out. That could be good, right?
So we went to the doctor yesterday to check in. She measured, poked, prodded, ultrasounded...and then she asked me if I wanted to go to the hospital today and have Jack before the weekend. What? Wow, that was quick! I was a little taken off guard! I think my heart might have started pounding! The other choice was to wait through the weekend, give Jack a little more time, and tentatively schedule the induction for Monday. That sounds a little better to me. You can't just spring something like going to the hospital and having a baby that day on someone! If there were complications, then sure! Not that we didn't have our bags packed, the car seat fastened in and our green monogrammed pillowcased pillows ready...and in the car...but that was just in case! Not because we'd really need them!!
But he's just fine...will that be my attitude with Jack? "You're just fine, you'll be ok"? Hmmmm...interesting.
Anyways, that's the plan. Go to the doctor on Monday morning, check things out, then head to the hospital on Monday night, sleep with some medicine thing to soften the cervix even more, then start the pitocin on Tuesday, and Tuesday will be his birthday!
My prediction? I'll go into labor either Sunday night or Monday between the doctor's appointment and when we're supposed to be at the hospital. I'm just saying...
T plus 1...
So, yesterday was the due date...or as they call it, the "estimated due date"...and Jack's still hanging in there!! I feel like I've been patient this past week and as I feel the mostly painless Braxton Hicks contractions, I'm trying to do my best to burn this time in my memory...laying on the couch all day (literally...should there be shame in that?), spending time with Jeff and Vincent, going out to eat at the spur of the moment, (actually, doing anything we want spur of the moment), going to sleep when I want, feeling Jack struggle to move around in his quickly shrinking (and hopefully short lived) home, puttering around the house working on whatever project strikes me at the moment...
Equipped
A friend of mine who's due at the end of September posted on facebook that she's had more sleepless nights than full nights of sleep and her consolation is that she can take the time to pray for her baby before those sleepless nights become full of feedings and things. I have my sleepless nights, for sure. For some reason, if I happen to wake up between 4 and 5, I can NOT get back to sleep until 7. It's very strange. I know it's just the Lord preparing me to not trust in my sleep to make it through the day.
I can't help but wonder if I'm equipped to be a mom. I have a great mom, great role model, wonderful friend. But how am I supposed to know what to do with little Jack! No matter how many books or videos we've watched, the unknown is so scary. What if the soothing 5 S's don't make Jack the happiest baby on the block? What if breastfeeding is really hard for us? What if he's sick and I don't know it? What if he never sleeps through the night? What if I never sleep through the night? It seems like with babies, the things you learn about and people tell you are the hard things, the things that will inevitably be the "bad" parts of having a baby.
I was reading in a pregnancy devotional this morning and it reminded me that the Lord equips us for the things He's called us to do. I am a firm believer that the Lord doesn't call the equipped, he equips the called. And I know that the Lord has called us to be loving, Godly parents. That has been our strongest desire, is to raise Jack in a God fearing home, with Christ loving parents and a church community to support and love us. Why would I doubt that He would take care?
2 Timothy 3:16-17 says that "All scripture is God breathed and useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting, and training in righteousness, so that the man of God will be thoroughly equipped for every good work."
To be equipped, I need to be in the Word, simple as that. Yes, Jack will cry and I won't know what to do and I know there will be days when I'll go to bed (for however long that is!) wondering if I did all I could to be a good mom that day. But my peace has to come from the Lord, not in how I do as a mom. I always struggle with wanting to do my best and feeling like I didn't do enough...the last few years, the Lord has been working hard on that. I know that I am enough, enough for Him because he equips me with just enough for the day at hand.
Now, if I could just remember this each and every day!