So, yesterday was the due date...or as they call it, the "estimated due date"...and Jack's still hanging in there!! I feel like I've been patient this past week and as I feel the mostly painless Braxton Hicks contractions, I'm trying to do my best to burn this time in my memory...laying on the couch all day (literally...should there be shame in that?), spending time with Jeff and Vincent, going out to eat at the spur of the moment, (actually, doing anything we want spur of the moment), going to sleep when I want, feeling Jack struggle to move around in his quickly shrinking (and hopefully short lived) home, puttering around the house working on whatever project strikes me at the moment...
I've been really thinking this week about how my life will change once Jack gets here. I know it will probably hardly resemble what my life looks like now, but I can't even imagine it! I mean I get annoyed when I wake up 900 times a night just to roll over or pop a few more Tylenol or Tums...and last night as I woke up for the 732nd time to get some Tums, I wondered if I'd be as annoyed to get out of bed if Jack was crying and needed me as I was to get a quick fix for my acid reflux issue? I sure hope not! I'm hoping that it's one of those things that just happens, realizing that I can sleep later and that he needs me now!
I guess it all comes down to knowing that the Lord will provide me just what I need for the day at hand. To think about all that there is to do, all that there is to worry about...I mean all you have to do is to pick up What to Expect the First Year or Your Baby's First Year Week by Week and you'll be so overwhelmed with things that happen or that you're supposed to do in the first 48 hours, you'll just cry! Between the umbilical cord, circumcision care, jaundice, cradle cap, healthy bowl movements, breastfeeding...it's just crazy! And that's just the first 48 hours chapter!! Not to mention you have to decide if you're pro-baby wipe or anti-baby wipe! Who would have thought there would be 2 sides to the issue. I surely didn't! That's why I'm stocked up on what feels like a lifetime supply of wipes! I guess that makes me pro-baby wipe...then there's the sleeping/raising your baby right issue...Baby Wise or Baby Whisperer or Happiest Baby on the Block? For someone who is not a planner, this sure is a lot to plan. Although the how could you not want your baby to be the happiest on the block? Maybe I'll go for that one...catchy title.
Knowing that, just like everything in life, taking it one day at a time is so much better than thinking that we'll raise this boy for the next 18...20...30...40 years of our lives. Clinging to the Lord and to each other, knowing that we're going to succeed and fail, have good days and bad, proud moments and embarrassing ones, makes it feel a little more safe.
So Jack, is today the day? I'd hate for you to miss your first Labor Day! :)
1 comments:
Oh goodness Molly! I KNOW you are ready! You look SO cute though! I hope he arrives soon! You'll do GREAT!
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