I absolutely can not believe Jack's had his first birthday. I literally sat, looking at him this morning, and thinking to myself, when someone asks me how old he is, I will have to tell them he's 1! Not almost 1, not 11 months...but 1! Where did the year go. Seriously.
It's so crazy to think that one year ago today, we brought him home. Put him in his lamb swing and were FREAKING OUT with the fact that they actually let us go home to do this on our own. We were exhausted, overwhelmed, and I'm willing to bet I'd had a few breakdowns already. I had no idea what it would be like to be a mom. And as cliche as it sounds, it the freakin hardest and most wonderful thing I've ever done.
I've learned this week how much Jack can do. He's not totally reliant on his morning nap anymore...which he showed me when he stayed awake and played for two....hours....in his crib for a few days last week. He is a trooper and can go visit another church for a Sunday and do absolutely wonderfully in the nursery. He can explore in the children's museum, even go where he can't see me, and be ok with that. He can stay up really late for a few days in a row...and be just fine. I am learning that he's not totally dependant on a schedule anymore. At least not as much as he used to be. He is pretty much amazing.
As I've wrestled with Jack growing up, I've just been reminded that he is not mine. He is a gift that the Lord has given Jeff and me, and it is a privilege and joy to raise this little boy, not just to put up with him, and "do our best" but know that it is such an honor to be able to be his parents. And realizing what a responsibility that is, not just to make sure he stays alive, but to raise him into a Godly man! And how hard that is, how intentional we will have to be...and of course how we'll fail...and by God's grace alone, will he end up making it. Man, we are blessed to be able to walk with him.
Now, for some birthday pictures!